First of all it is important for you to know that everyone experiences grief differently and there is no normal or right way to grieve. If a member of your family or a close friend has died recently, or if someone you cared about died longer ago but you feel like it is still troubling you in whatever way, you may feel it would be good for you to talk to someone about what you are going through.
Your friends and family can hopefully support you with this, but you may also feel it would be helpful to talk to someone outside of your personal life, who has lots of skills and experience in helping people process the loss of someone close to them.
There are a lot of services that can support children and young people with death and bereavement. You could ask at your school, college or uni, for someone there to help you find someone to speak to in your local area. When you contact them you don’t need to tell them about the HIV in your life if you don't want to, so don't let this put you off if it is a worry.
You can find your nearest local support through the Childhood Bereavement Network. Cruise bereavement also provide free support services across the country. You can get in contact with them via their website or phone their helpline on 0808 808 1677 to find out about your nearest local support branch.